So I did ovulate. It's not a question anymore. It just wasn't as early as I thought it was. It looks like our timing was good this cycle, so if the Clomid has done it's job, then hopefully by the 15th we will have a positive pregnancy test! I go for my progesterone test on Monday, Nov.3. I'll get the answers back on the 5th. Should be a 24 hour turn around but with election day it will take an extra 24 hours (unless I can get it done at the hospital...I'm checking into that....then maybe same day results). I'm trying not to get too excited but I am hopeful.
We decided to pick two names for each sex so that we are prepared just in case. We've already settled on our two names for boys and our possible girl names is down to a short list now. It's a bit harder to pick a girl name. There are so many that I like!
I've nearly finished crocheting one blanket, and I plan on making at least 2 more, 1 for a girl and one neutral. I'm also making little hats for boys, girls and neutral. I really think that all this TTC has finally started to eat away at my sanity. I caught myself rubbing my belly and talking to it earlier today. LOL If this is our cycle the baby hasn't even implanted and I am already talking to him/her. Yep....I'm starting to lose it!
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Maybe not
I guess I didn't O yet afterall. But I think I am getting ready to. Now I have to call the RE's office on Monday to find out do they want my bloodwork done on CD 21 or 7 dpo. In a textbook cycle, that is the same day. It won't be this cycle for me. My OPK today was so close to + that it isn't even funny. I'm expecting it to be + when I test again later today. I should ovulate in the next 24 hours or so. Guess what I'll be doing this weekend? lol I'm having cramps on my left side too, so that must be were I am ovulating from. Hopefully it's two eggs! I want twins!
I'm still hopeful about this cycle. It's early enough that I could have a normal luteal phase easily. I just really want to be pregnant so bad that it hurts! I'm running out of steam, and if I have to quit TTC......it will be so heartbreaking. I really think that part of me will die if I am never pregnant again. Maybe that sounds stupid, but I just want this so desperately. I've never wanted anything this much before!
I'm still hopeful about this cycle. It's early enough that I could have a normal luteal phase easily. I just really want to be pregnant so bad that it hurts! I'm running out of steam, and if I have to quit TTC......it will be so heartbreaking. I really think that part of me will die if I am never pregnant again. Maybe that sounds stupid, but I just want this so desperately. I've never wanted anything this much before!
Thursday, October 23, 2008
I did. I think. Did I?
I think I ovulated. Which sucks. It sucks because Matt had been sick for a few days. There hadn't been any "deposits" lately. It's not completely impossible, but after 31 cycles, I'm realistic, and my chances this cycle aren't. It also sucks because I never got a positive OPK even though I was using a good brand and testing twice a day. For some reason my body just isn't working with them anymore. So frustrating!
My temperature was up today, which indicates that I probably did ovulate. Especially since I was cold and expecting it to be down. I couldn't believe that it was up nearly a whole degree. (4 tenths of a degree indicates ovulation) I did temp late this morning but if anything that should have made it lower instead of higher. I'll have to see what happens in the morning and the next day to know for sure, but I'm fairly certain.
There is a good side to this. I'm on cycle day 14. I don't think I have ever ovulated on day 14. It means that Clomid is doing it's job! I should have a nice long LP and if there are any swimmers in there that make it to the egg they should have time to fertilize and then the egg could implant before I start my period (which has been part of the problem in the past.....just ovulating too late and not having time for this to happen).
I want this to be the cycle that I finally get pregnant with a healthy pregnancy. It would be so perfect. We could have an ultrasound at the RE's office early on (around 8 weeks) and see the heartbeat. We've agreed to tell the family once we see the heartbeat (which can be seen as early as 6 weeks, but waiting until 8 weeks ensures that we should see it and will eliminate the chance of unneeded stress.) With the timing.....if we got it this cycle we could tell everyone at Christmas. That would be so fun! I'm hopeful, however after 31 cycles, I'm also realistic, and I'm not getting my hopes up too high. I guess we'll know in a few weeks.
I'm still not testing early though. It causes too much heartache!
My temperature was up today, which indicates that I probably did ovulate. Especially since I was cold and expecting it to be down. I couldn't believe that it was up nearly a whole degree. (4 tenths of a degree indicates ovulation) I did temp late this morning but if anything that should have made it lower instead of higher. I'll have to see what happens in the morning and the next day to know for sure, but I'm fairly certain.
There is a good side to this. I'm on cycle day 14. I don't think I have ever ovulated on day 14. It means that Clomid is doing it's job! I should have a nice long LP and if there are any swimmers in there that make it to the egg they should have time to fertilize and then the egg could implant before I start my period (which has been part of the problem in the past.....just ovulating too late and not having time for this to happen).
I want this to be the cycle that I finally get pregnant with a healthy pregnancy. It would be so perfect. We could have an ultrasound at the RE's office early on (around 8 weeks) and see the heartbeat. We've agreed to tell the family once we see the heartbeat (which can be seen as early as 6 weeks, but waiting until 8 weeks ensures that we should see it and will eliminate the chance of unneeded stress.) With the timing.....if we got it this cycle we could tell everyone at Christmas. That would be so fun! I'm hopeful, however after 31 cycles, I'm also realistic, and I'm not getting my hopes up too high. I guess we'll know in a few weeks.
I'm still not testing early though. It causes too much heartache!
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
It's been awhile.
I haven't been posting anywhere in a couple of weeks....except on JustMommies. I've been in a bit of a funk about life in general. Just passed my Dad's birthday and in January we'll hit 2 years since he passed away (how is it freaking possible that it's been that long!) and I also just passed the 2 year anniversary of my first miscarriage. That sucks. Still no baby. Still not pregnant. I never imagined it would take so long.
This cycle is the first time that I took Clomid. The cycle started on October 10th (the anniversary of my miscarriage no less!) and I took Clomid on CD 3-7. What it does (if I got this right) is blocks communication in the body so that my body thinks I'm not producing estrogen. The hypothalamus responds by producing more GnRH which then stimulates the pituitary to produce FSH. In a normal cycle healthy follicles produce estrogen, which signals the hypothalamus to reduce production of FSH. Because the Clomid is blocking communications, FSH is still being produced resulting in larger, healthier and potentially more eggs. Then, when you stop taking the Clomid the body reacts to the estrogen, cutting off the FSH, and beginning production of LH, which leads to the release of the eggs.
I felt really excited early in the cycle, but I didn't post because I was afraid to jinx it. Now....IDK, not feeling it so much. I guess just my way of preparing for the letdown I've gotten every other month. I haven't ovulated yet. Should be in the next few days. We should definitely have things covered when the time comes. Matt has been making "deposits" daily at least. I don't know what's gotten into us but we're like newlyweds again! lol I won't be testing early this cycle. It has caused too much heartache so far. I'm waiting until I'm late. I won't test before November 15th, at which point I'm basically sure to get a positive because I'll be a week late by then.
I have to go in on CD 21 and have my progesterone levels checked again to see if the Clomid has fixed that problem.....which it should (we hope). Other than that, the rest of this cycle should be pretty boring. I'll post the results of the progesterone check when I get them. (possibly on the 31st, but I may get stuck waiting until Nov. 3rd to get them. Why oh why do my tests always fall at the end of the week, making me wait all weekend for results?!?) After that, I'll let you know what my RE says in regards to my progesterone levels, and let you know either if AF shows up or when I test.
This cycle is the first time that I took Clomid. The cycle started on October 10th (the anniversary of my miscarriage no less!) and I took Clomid on CD 3-7. What it does (if I got this right) is blocks communication in the body so that my body thinks I'm not producing estrogen. The hypothalamus responds by producing more GnRH which then stimulates the pituitary to produce FSH. In a normal cycle healthy follicles produce estrogen, which signals the hypothalamus to reduce production of FSH. Because the Clomid is blocking communications, FSH is still being produced resulting in larger, healthier and potentially more eggs. Then, when you stop taking the Clomid the body reacts to the estrogen, cutting off the FSH, and beginning production of LH, which leads to the release of the eggs.
I felt really excited early in the cycle, but I didn't post because I was afraid to jinx it. Now....IDK, not feeling it so much. I guess just my way of preparing for the letdown I've gotten every other month. I haven't ovulated yet. Should be in the next few days. We should definitely have things covered when the time comes. Matt has been making "deposits" daily at least. I don't know what's gotten into us but we're like newlyweds again! lol I won't be testing early this cycle. It has caused too much heartache so far. I'm waiting until I'm late. I won't test before November 15th, at which point I'm basically sure to get a positive because I'll be a week late by then.
I have to go in on CD 21 and have my progesterone levels checked again to see if the Clomid has fixed that problem.....which it should (we hope). Other than that, the rest of this cycle should be pretty boring. I'll post the results of the progesterone check when I get them. (possibly on the 31st, but I may get stuck waiting until Nov. 3rd to get them. Why oh why do my tests always fall at the end of the week, making me wait all weekend for results?!?) After that, I'll let you know what my RE says in regards to my progesterone levels, and let you know either if AF shows up or when I test.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Surgery is over
I had my surgery yesterday. I'm doing okay. Starting to feel it a bit more. I screwed up though and was only taking my pain meds every 9 hours instead of every 4 (Because I was feeling fine, and now I'm hurting. Not to terrible, but enough that I know it's happened! Turns out I don't have endometriosis. I has some adhesions on the posterior cul-de-sac of the fallopian tubes where they pick up the fertilized egg, so he removed those, and said it should significantly increase our chances of conception. I'm allowed to start trying again next week (and shouldn't ovulate until probably the week after or later.) so hopefully I'll be pregnant soon!
For now I am off to bed to relax and maybe nap. Percocet makes me loopy! :P
For now I am off to bed to relax and maybe nap. Percocet makes me loopy! :P
Saturday, September 13, 2008
catching up
OK class, we have a lot to cover today to catch up to where we should be, so I need everyone to quiet down and.......oh who am I kidding? lol We all know you are the only one reading this Kelly!
Here's the deal. Matt's semen analysis I talked about it the last entry got canceled, and I was furious to say the least. It was starting to look like we might not get it done any time soon when my new doctor (the RE) came through for us. Well, his staff anyway. We called and let them know what was going on and they squeezed him in to get it done after my appointment on the 8th. So I went on the 5th to get my progesterone levels checked and they inform me that this test has to be sent away and that the results won't be back until Monday sometime. GRRR! I needed them Monday morning, I told them that when I called to schedule and specifically asked if they could do the test in their lab! So now I'm in a pissy mood again and pretty sure I'm done with that clinic.(On top of lying to me about doing the test in house, they made me sit and wait over an hour for them to draw one flipping tube of blood! And charged me like $165.00 for it!
Anywho....on the 8th we went to the RE's office for our first visit with him. I just gotta say...this doctor is AWESOME! He looks over my charts, and my tests that I had faxed over. He asks some questions and then tells us we have several options. He lays out all these options, most of which involve testing, surgery and meds, in one particular order or another, and all ending in really expensive fertility treatments. Then he said...."Now let me lay out what I truly believe is the best option for the two of you." So it sounded great and here is the new plan:
First, we are taking a break from trying to conceive.
We got my progesterone test back, and they are low. Not horribly low, but just enough to screw things up. This will be fixed by a prescription of either Clomid or Femara. Second we did Matt's semen analysis. They check three areas...count (how many are there), motility (are the forward moving), and morphology (are the the right size with one head and one tail). They wanted his count to be around 20 million, motility at 50% and morphology at 4%. Higher is even better. His results.......count 100 million, motility 67.9% and morphology 7%. They said he has super sperm.
He told us he expected this to be pretty normal, and it was above normal. He really believes that the entire problem lies within me. He's sure that I have endometriosis, so I go in Wednesday (the 17th) at noon to have a laparoscopic surgery done to confirm that and remove all the endometrial tissue that's wandering around inside my body. Since I'm already under anesthesia and he is already doing the lap, he's also going to do a hysteroscopy that day. That's were they dilate my cervix and go in with a scope to check out my uterus, tubes and ovaries. There are other ways to check them, but this way he can make any repairs immediately, and I only have to be under the anesthesia once. It's an out patient surgery and I'll be home that night, so no biggie. I have to take it easy for the rest of the week and Monday I'm back to normal activities.
After I heal from the surgery and we are cleared to start TTC again, then I will get the prescription for Clomid or Femara and we will try on our own for a few more months. (possibly as many as 6 months, but it's entirely up to Matt and I) He really thinks that we are going to be able to get pregnant on our own once we have this surgery done, and because of the meds, there is still going to be an elevated chance of twins!
I'm really nervous about the surgery, but I also know that it's very likely that I am going to get pregnant soon after this, so it's also very exciting. I'll update after the surgery but don't expect to hear anything before Friday or Saturday. Pain meds make me REALLY loopy, so I probably won't feel up to posting much of anything before then.
Here's the deal. Matt's semen analysis I talked about it the last entry got canceled, and I was furious to say the least. It was starting to look like we might not get it done any time soon when my new doctor (the RE) came through for us. Well, his staff anyway. We called and let them know what was going on and they squeezed him in to get it done after my appointment on the 8th. So I went on the 5th to get my progesterone levels checked and they inform me that this test has to be sent away and that the results won't be back until Monday sometime. GRRR! I needed them Monday morning, I told them that when I called to schedule and specifically asked if they could do the test in their lab! So now I'm in a pissy mood again and pretty sure I'm done with that clinic.(On top of lying to me about doing the test in house, they made me sit and wait over an hour for them to draw one flipping tube of blood! And charged me like $165.00 for it!
Anywho....on the 8th we went to the RE's office for our first visit with him. I just gotta say...this doctor is AWESOME! He looks over my charts, and my tests that I had faxed over. He asks some questions and then tells us we have several options. He lays out all these options, most of which involve testing, surgery and meds, in one particular order or another, and all ending in really expensive fertility treatments. Then he said...."Now let me lay out what I truly believe is the best option for the two of you." So it sounded great and here is the new plan:
First, we are taking a break from trying to conceive.
We got my progesterone test back, and they are low. Not horribly low, but just enough to screw things up. This will be fixed by a prescription of either Clomid or Femara. Second we did Matt's semen analysis. They check three areas...count (how many are there), motility (are the forward moving), and morphology (are the the right size with one head and one tail). They wanted his count to be around 20 million, motility at 50% and morphology at 4%. Higher is even better. His results.......count 100 million, motility 67.9% and morphology 7%. They said he has super sperm.
He told us he expected this to be pretty normal, and it was above normal. He really believes that the entire problem lies within me. He's sure that I have endometriosis, so I go in Wednesday (the 17th) at noon to have a laparoscopic surgery done to confirm that and remove all the endometrial tissue that's wandering around inside my body. Since I'm already under anesthesia and he is already doing the lap, he's also going to do a hysteroscopy that day. That's were they dilate my cervix and go in with a scope to check out my uterus, tubes and ovaries. There are other ways to check them, but this way he can make any repairs immediately, and I only have to be under the anesthesia once. It's an out patient surgery and I'll be home that night, so no biggie. I have to take it easy for the rest of the week and Monday I'm back to normal activities.
After I heal from the surgery and we are cleared to start TTC again, then I will get the prescription for Clomid or Femara and we will try on our own for a few more months. (possibly as many as 6 months, but it's entirely up to Matt and I) He really thinks that we are going to be able to get pregnant on our own once we have this surgery done, and because of the meds, there is still going to be an elevated chance of twins!
I'm really nervous about the surgery, but I also know that it's very likely that I am going to get pregnant soon after this, so it's also very exciting. I'll update after the surgery but don't expect to hear anything before Friday or Saturday. Pain meds make me REALLY loopy, so I probably won't feel up to posting much of anything before then.
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Semen Analysis
Matt has to go in later today for his semen analysis. On Friday I'll have to go get blood drawn to check my progesterone levels, and then Monday it's off to the RE to see if he wants to follow through with the plan for an immediate IUI or if he wants to try something else first. The way things look now, we might have to try a few cycles of Clomid and trying on our own before we go to IUI, but I'm okay with that because now insurance is going to help pay for the treatment. (We thought we had to pay it all out of pocket and even had plans of borrowing against Matt's retirement to do it!) If insurance is going to cover some, if not all of the treatments, then sure......I'll try a few cycles just doing medication. Maybe that's all I really need. And if not....well, it gives me time to knock off some more weight before getting fat again! lol Part of me is still hoping that we are going to do an IUI right away though. Guess I'll find out on Monday!
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