It's been awhile.

I haven't been posting anywhere in a couple of weeks....except on JustMommies. I've been in a bit of a funk about life in general. Just passed my Dad's birthday and in January we'll hit 2 years since he passed away (how is it freaking possible that it's been that long!) and I also just passed the 2 year anniversary of my first miscarriage. That sucks. Still no baby. Still not pregnant. I never imagined it would take so long.

This cycle is the first time that I took Clomid. The cycle started on October 10th (the anniversary of my miscarriage no less!) and I took Clomid on CD 3-7. What it does (if I got this right) is blocks communication in the body so that my body thinks I'm not producing estrogen. The hypothalamus responds by producing more GnRH which then stimulates the pituitary to produce FSH. In a normal cycle healthy follicles produce estrogen, which signals the hypothalamus to reduce production of FSH. Because the Clomid is blocking communications, FSH is still being produced resulting in larger, healthier and potentially more eggs. Then, when you stop taking the Clomid the body reacts to the estrogen, cutting off the FSH, and beginning production of LH, which leads to the release of the eggs.

I felt really excited early in the cycle, but I didn't post because I was afraid to jinx it. Now....IDK, not feeling it so much. I guess just my way of preparing for the letdown I've gotten every other month. I haven't ovulated yet. Should be in the next few days. We should definitely have things covered when the time comes. Matt has been making "deposits" daily at least. I don't know what's gotten into us but we're like newlyweds again! lol I won't be testing early this cycle. It has caused too much heartache so far. I'm waiting until I'm late. I won't test before November 15th, at which point I'm basically sure to get a positive because I'll be a week late by then.

I have to go in on CD 21 and have my progesterone levels checked again to see if the Clomid has fixed that problem.....which it should (we hope). Other than that, the rest of this cycle should be pretty boring. I'll post the results of the progesterone check when I get them. (possibly on the 31st, but I may get stuck waiting until Nov. 3rd to get them. Why oh why do my tests always fall at the end of the week, making me wait all weekend for results?!?) After that, I'll let you know what my RE says in regards to my progesterone levels, and let you know either if AF shows up or when I test.